I began to blog because I am a writer, and writers write. But I also blogged because I wanted to connect with other parents that walked the same journey I walk.
Through this blog, I began to share about life with a baby
with Down syndrome. After a while, I began to receive emails from other
women who were struggling with a new or a prenatal diagnosis of Down
syndrome. Somehow, it seemed, my words touched their heart and they
needed someone to talk to. I prayed for each one of these women, and
soon I recognized I was part of a greater story where I only had a small
part to play. But however small, I considered it to be an honor and a “high calling” so I continued to write.
When our “special needs” family expanded by adopting a child with cerebral palsy,
I began to write about adoption. Mainly, I was writing about the
emotions of adoption, because I wanted to be honest and real about the
process. Adoption was hard. I wish someone had reached out to me and
affirmed that my emotions were normal.
I write because I want to offer hope, courage, and community to those reading my words.
I write because I don’t want the hurting, struggling, or broken to think that they are alone in this journey of life.
And I write honestly, because if I only tell you what makes me sound
good, perfect, or like a worthy pastor’s wife, then I have cheated you
in some way. If I tell you that adoption is hard,
but I don’t tell you that it took me more than a year to feel any love
for my child, I have alienated you if you too are an adopting parent
struggling with love. If I tell you that I struggle with anxiety, but I don’t tell you that almost a year ago I had to ask for help, then I have made you feel lonely in your
own struggles thinking nobody will understand or that you are “worse
off” than the rest. If I tell you that being a parent is a joy, but I
don’t tell you that at times I feel like a failure as a mother because
of my media addiction, then I am not allowing a level of accountability or honesty to enter into my life, and maybe yours too.
Last week, I wrote about special needs parents feeling invisible. I wanted to affirm them that they are not alone, and that I see them. You can read that post HERE.
That is where blogging blew me away.
In a week, that post has been shared more than 10,000 times on Facebook through my blog and through Not Alone.
And I want to say thank you! Thank you to all of you who shared that post.
Mainly, I am simply humbled that my words were able to encourage so many special needs parents. Because I do, I see you!